Do you ever feel.....

....numb? I feel like I am floating through each day.....I put on a happy (or not so happy) face for my kids. No one ever told me that being an adult would be so hard. I always envisioned a perfect world and life.....marriage, kids, home.....but, it just doesn't work that way....I am one to change things if they are not working for me a certain way, however, I feel stuck right now. I am trying, I have addressed certain issues, but, I also am not very patient....I want results right now....so, I need to just try harder. I feel like it is more difficult when my kids are home for the summer, I had been avoiding issues while they were in school, and now that I am face to face with my issues, I just want change immediately.....I just need to be patient, be in the moment, and breathe.....I need to enjoy the moments with my kids....change will come in time. I really do not like this feeling, as it is so much better to be happy....as a matter of fact, it takes more muscles to frown than to smile.....so, I will go with that!

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I haven't had....

...much to say lately, as they say, if you don't have anything nice to say....you know, I keep telling my kids don't wish your time away....the best time of your life is now, as a child when you don't have to pay bills, have responsibilities, work, etc....and my son especially just wants to grow up so quickly. I guess I do remember feeling like I wanted freedom....but, it does have a price....now, of course, hind sight is 20/20....I wish I were a kid who just had the whole summer of lots of fun to look forward to! Not planning on going to a funeral...across the country....again....or navigating difficult relationships, or worrying about what is next, or worrying about finances....to just wake up and say, "Mom, what are we doing today?" Going to the beach? Going on a playdate? Going to the movies? Going to the park? Going to the aquarium? Hanging out at home? I think for the summer, I will just enjoy playing with the kids.... :)

I would love input and comments back, if you are reading my blog! Thank you for reading!!! :)